And by era, I mean month. In retrospect, this is the morning after my 4 month anniversary with ms. Christina L. Fiallos. The time together has been amazing, and I am in awe at how much we've grown. God's story in our lives would leave me on the edge of my seat -- if we were a movie. Now though, is time for even more growth.
Four months ago, the day after Christmas -- I finally had enough courage to take the plunge and make it official. Where we were once just contemplating ideas, we finally had our desired result: doin' it (entering a monogamous relationship). I'll be honest, I was a little afraid initially. I was afraid that once I made things official that it would really test our friendship. That means though that we were really going to see if what we desired was real or not; whether or not this was just a fling, a phase, or something more. I was always hoping it was something more ... and by God's leading, there's nothing less than that from what I can perceive right now. I love it.
Today I fast from her, so my direction may be focused upon God. No eating, and no contact with the chicklet. In place I put Bible, Prayer, and Studying. The next four months, I desire to lead her into a place of maturity; not to say that we haven't been mature already, BUT -- this has been the time of butterflies and sweet little lovey dovey kisses. Next up, our focuses reshape to view the decisions we need to make that will affect the rest of our lives -- together, or apart. We'll be encouraging each other to focus on education, work, studying, and a lot of other things that require diligence. It's in this time that I can really customize her to be the one I'm waiting for, and vice versa.
Things are very convenient right now, but as with all relationships -- emotions are cyclical -- and I expect our journey to be both high and low. Regardless, I heart this chicklet, and so I choose to grow more with her :D! The pursuit is still on!
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Bible:
James (The Message)
Faith Under Pressure
" Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at
you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is
forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out
of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and
well-developed, not deficient in any way. " ~ 1:2-4
" Prosperity is as short-lived as a wildflower, so don't ever count on it. " ~ 1:10
" Anyone who meets a testing challenge head-on and manages to stick it out is mighty fortunate. For such persons loyally in love with God, the reward is life and more life. " ~ 1:12
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Every desirable and beneficial gift comes out of heaven. There is nothing deceitful in God, nothing two-faced, nothing fickle. He brought us to life using the true Word, showing us off as the crown
of all his creatures. " ~ 1:17-18
" But whoever catches a
glimpse of the revealed counsel of God—the free life!—even out of the
corner of his eye, and sticks with it, is no distracted scatterbrain
but a man or woman of action. That person will find delight and
affirmation in the action. " ~ 1:25
" Anyone who sets himself up as "religious" by talking a good game is self-deceived. This kind of religion is hot air and only hot air. Real religion, the kind that passes muster before God the Father, is this: Reach out to the homeless and loveless in their plight, and guard against corruption from the godless world. " ~ 1:26-27
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Give this a read and we'll discuss sections in comments, let's grow together!